Don't know quite why, but having a pretty *bleh* day.... no energy and no enthusiasm for anything. happens from time to time, and I'll get over it, but really feel like this is a "shut the doors and forget the world" kid of day. Don't like feeling like this, and need something to do, so thought I'd post.

Just been thinking about "ago" and whether it is ever possible to go back to things that stopped. When I was a Ickle Hemlok, and still very keen, I was learning to play the piano. I had lessons privately until I was about 11, then my Secondary School took over, but I got extra lessons from my amazing grandad. who was such a big influence on me... unfortuantely, at 14, the school started to charge for lessons, and with 4 of us all playing various instruments, it cost too much, and all lessons stopped.

Now I'm not for a moment saying I was any good (believe me, I wasn't... my private teacher did her best, and entered me for a competition when I was about 9: trouble was, although i played the test piece well enough for her, I fell apart in front of an audience, and could not identify a single note on the page.....) but I enjoyed playing, and retained some of what I had learned for years. I often bemoaned the fact that I had not been able to carry on. and then, 2 years ago, I was given the loveliest old piano by Pash. I am now painstakingly trying to relearn all the pieces in my old music books (yes,I kept them all!) and surprising myself because I have been able to play some of them only fairly badly, rather than so badly that the piano police have been called to take away my weapon of mass depression.....and every time I sit down at that keyboard, I am ten years old again, loving the smell, the sight, and the sound of that gorgeous old thing, and constantly stunned that it is mine......

Sometimes, all our inner child needs is a little encouragement.